House of Souls

Still I have ancient vivid memories of you:

your words are still echoing in my ears;

your passions are still inspiring me forth;

your love is forever warming my heart 

even in the coldest loneliest night…

In the house of souls-

there is no one can understand my deepest longings as you do;

there is no one can know the secrets of all my love and all my sorrow as you do;

there is no one can see through my loneliness and my frustrations as you do;

there is no one can understand my struggle-

between my soaring-free spirit and my bonded physical reality as you do…

But somehow, somewhere,

I got lost in my own astrays and I got separated from you,

I have been longing for getting back to you since-

even it is just for one glance;

even it is just for one touch …

Haven’t you told me once:

‘If you can keep your mind undivided;

If you can keep your thoughts purified;

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoings and right doings,

there is a field,

I shall meet you there.’

thus I have been trying to cross the oceans and the continents-

looking for you,

Yet, I could not find you...

Is it because that I haven’t given up my mind enough?

Is it because that I haven’t purified my thoughts enough?

Haven’t you told me once:

‘when you become no longer interested in arguing and convincing;

when you become attuned towards the serenity of silence;

then I shall meet you there.’

thus I have been meditating on Gibran’s poems and Rumi's dance

desperately looking for the signs of you;

Yet, I could not find you...

Is it because that I haven’t detached from my own ideas enough?

Is it because that I haven’t quietened my senses enough?

Haven’t you told me once:

‘when you have learned gratitude from happiness;

when you have learned humbleness from the pains;

when you have gained the capacity of transforming

any situation into learning experience;

when you have the tenderness preserved in your heart even when you are hurt;

when you have the joy brought to the others even when you are in sorrow…

then I shall meet you there.’

thus I have been waiting for you from the sunrise to the sunset;

from the leaves turning green to brown;

Yet, I could not find you...

Is it because that I haven’t wounded enough?

Is it because that I haven’t learned enough?

Haven’t you told me once:

‘Our love is ancient and eternal;

our love is beyond time and space;

So there is no need to be too concerned about one lifetime’s gains or losses;

So there is no need to be too consumed by others' opinions or conventions;

Instead, focus in living this life true to your self;

Instead , focus in working out your attachments and your karma in this lifetime;

then I shall meet you on another side…’

Or, I have misunderstood you from the start?

Or, I have been looking for you in the wrong places?

Or, I have never really got separated from you?

Or actually, you have been with me all along...?!

Maybe, I can just find you there in my laughs and dances;

Maybe, I can just find you there in my tears and silence;

Maybe, You have been already in my dreams thousands times-

caressing my sorrow and healing my weary heart...

Maybe, in the house of the souls,

there is no you and there is no me,

YOU are ME and I am YOU!