Oh, how
much I have hated my parents-
for their
worldly shrewdness;
for having us
carry over their own desires and guilt;
We were lost
all together like blind led by the blind…
Yet, how much
I love my parents-
for having the
opportunity to manifest my life through them;
for having
shared their sufferings and ignorance-
so to kindle
my desire of wanting to be freed from -
the sufferings
and ignorance...
Oh, how much I
have hated this body of mine -
for its
vulnerability and its limitations
for the
disbelief of such a greatness,
such an
intelligence dwelling in a such poverty …
Yet, how much
I love this body of mine –
for my ears
can hear the songs echoing within the deep forest;
for my feet
can feel the tickles of the sand, the caressing of the sea;
for my face
can sense the warm glow from the first ray of the morning sun;
for my heart
can throb the beautiful melodies
when you take
me into your arms…
Oh, how much I
have hated this world-
for its
hypocrisy and its unfairness;
for its
greediness and its unconsciousness-
People die as
if they have never lived;
People live as
if they have never died…
Yet, how much
I love this world-
for the small
dewdrops glittering in the sunlight beautifully;
for the maple
leaves turning into flamingo red magically;
for the
delicious smell of newly brewed coffee filling up my room slowly;
for the good
laughs with those dear friends of mine;
for the small
kindness shown by some passing-by strangers;
for the desire
of seeing your sweet smile
as soon as I
open my eyes in the morning…
Oh, how silly
of me-
have spent
years in loving this and hating that;
then again,
how silly of me -
have spent
years at war with myself for loving this and hate that!
Oh, how silly
of me-
for not
understanding both my love and my hate
are of the
same ONE energy within me!
Whenever I
deny my hate,
I deny my love
as well;
Whenever I
deny the intensity of my hate,
I deny the
intensity of my love as well…
Those weak
people-
who neither
dare to love nor to hate,
so they love
lightly and hate lightly;
Those
passionate souls-
who can
neither love lightly nor hate lightly ,
whatever they
do they do with their intensity-
they can't be
any other way.
Therefore,
One can only
love/hate as one's energy allows;
However,
Energy has to
be expressed by moving-
(standing
still leads to stagnation)
Or moving from
love to hate,
Or moving from
hate to love …
Thus,
One has to
take the full responsibility
for one's
energy manifestation-
or moving
little closer towards love, joy and light;
or moving
little closer towards hate, suffering and darkness;
There is no
such a thing as victim of the outer forces
but there is
everything to do with one's own making here...
As were
repeated in my dreams,
I watched my
self leaving my body -
soaring
through the endless clouds in the sky;
venturing into
the dangerous uncharted seas;
standing on
the mountain tops laughing loudly-
at the drama
plays of my chosen;
at this whole
absurdity of separation
between love and hate!
