Love and Hate

Oh, how much I have hated my parents-

for their worldly shrewdness;

for having us carry over their own desires and guilt;

We were lost all together like blind led by the blind…

Yet, how much I love my parents-

for having the opportunity to manifest my life through them;

for having shared their sufferings and ignorance-

so to kindle my desire of wanting to be freed from -

the sufferings and ignorance...

Oh, how much I have hated this body of mine -

for its vulnerability and its limitations

for the disbelief of such a greatness,

such an intelligence dwelling in a such poverty …

Yet, how much I love this body of mine –

for my ears can hear the songs echoing within the deep forest;

for my feet can feel the tickles of the sand, the caressing of the sea;

for my face can sense the warm glow from the first ray of the morning sun;

for my heart can throb the beautiful melodies

when you take me into your arms…

Oh, how much I have hated this world-

for its hypocrisy and its unfairness;

for its greediness and its unconsciousness-

People die as if they have never lived;

People live as if they have never died…

Yet, how much I love this world-

for the small dewdrops glittering in the sunlight beautifully;

for the maple leaves turning into flamingo red magically;

for the delicious smell of newly brewed coffee filling up my room slowly;

for the good laughs with those dear friends of mine;

for the small kindness shown by some passing-by strangers;

for the desire of seeing your sweet smile

as soon as I open my eyes in the morning…

Oh, how silly of me-

have spent years in loving this and hating that;

then again, how silly of me -

have spent years at war with myself for loving this and hate that!

Oh, how silly of me-

for not understanding both my love and my hate 

are of the same ONE energy within me!

Whenever I deny my hate,

I deny my love as well;

Whenever I deny the intensity of my hate,

I deny the intensity of my love as well…

Those weak people-

who neither dare to love nor to hate,

so they love lightly and hate lightly;

Those passionate souls-

who can neither love lightly nor hate lightly ,

whatever they do they do with their intensity-

they can't be any other way.

Therefore, 

One can only love/hate as one's energy allows;

However, 

Energy has to be expressed by moving-

(standing still leads to stagnation)

Or moving from love to hate,

Or moving from hate to love …

Thus,

One has to take the full responsibility

for one's energy manifestation-

or moving little closer towards love, joy and light;

or moving little closer towards hate, suffering and darkness;

There is no such a thing as victim of the outer forces 

but there is everything to do with one's own making here...

As were repeated in my dreams,

I watched my self leaving my body -

soaring through the endless clouds in the sky;

venturing into the dangerous uncharted seas;

standing on the mountain tops laughing loudly-

at the drama plays of my chosen;

at this whole absurdity of separation 

between love and hate!

……