Tuesday, August 31, 2021

Life is like a series of movies




                  Life is like a series of movies. Even though we are aware that it is just a movie, yet we can’t help with our emotions or feeling joyful, or sad, or angry as the story is unfolding… The thing is if we don’t get our emotions involved, we can certainly avoid the feelings of those negative emotions like sadness, anger and fear, but at the same time those positive emotions would be avoided consciously or unconsciously, because the polarities of human emotions set the tones for our human experiences- how much we are willing to dive into the depth of those negative emotions determines how much we can experience the depth of the opposite emotions, which means if we want to know what ecstasy feels like we have to know what ‘at bottom’ feels like...  if we are here to enjoy a movie, don't we want to experience the movie in its full glory and the rich experience it offers without holding back ourselves?! For the physical part of us, understandably any pain or negative emotion may be unwanted and to be avoided at all costs, yet for the soul/spirit part of us, those are not so unwanted because they can offer a soul with another kind of depth, richness and value added to its soul growth …

               There are already very much of imbalances in human’s emotional bodies due to the past hurts and suppressions from our parents and even from our ancestral lines passing down to us. Those emotional wounds are not less real than the physical wounds, yet due to its hidden characteristics, often it is being treated as less of importance and being brushed aside until our emotional body become overwhelmed and overloaded with the accumulated distressed signals ‘translating’ over to our physical body and also our mental body(they all are intertwisted and interconnected) and manifesting dis-eases in our physical body or our mental body… For too long time emotions have been regarded less of importance in comparison to mental intelligence due to the misconceptions and ideas after thousands years’ human history with more male-dominated patriarchal society which promoted more logical left-brain way of thinking than the feminine way of living, failed to honor the feminine aspects such as emotions and intuition which we humans are much in need of .  Thus, even in today's so called modern people, there are so much discontents and dissatisfactions being built up, and there are so much hunger and longing for the real emotional connection and fulfillment, but unfortunately there are not enough emphasis and right guidance out there for people to lean on especially there are so much of manipulations and fake gurus, teachers out there waiting for exploiting our wounds and weakness…

               I have been down there. Even though I have always had this joyful ‘happy-go-luck’ spirit but people did not appreciate that quality especially at the time, at the place where I was born - everywhere I turned was so much misery- since the whole China was in a stage of exhaustion and paralysis after many years of wars and struggles inside and outside, so many people were much burdened with the basic needs in their life, the mentality of poverty and scarcity was common, and the distorted view of life and psychological aftermath left from their past experiences... as a small child I experienced everything as grey-ish, people often dressed greyish, without color; everyone looked so serious and grey in their facial expressions and even the sky felt very greyish... As misery likes its company but I was not like that in my nature. Everything I was they were not. People even my own parents could not appreciate my strangely joyfulness nature, I guess any sign of happiness was like a reminder of their own misery; they could not appreciate my sensitivity and my uniqueness so I was treated as a black sheep, discredited and poorly treated... So I was very much emotionally traumatized and withdrawn and have taken me years to heal my inner child wounds. So trust me, if I say that I understand your struggles, your sadness, your anger and your loneliness and your helplessness and hopelessness, and I know what it feels like to scream your lungs out but no one hears or no one cares; But trust me also, when I tell you that it does not have to continue to be that way. Though everything happened in my earlier life have set me for a not-so-promising path, even could lead me to a path self destruction, but I did not go down that path. I listened to my intuition and I followed the nudges from my spirit guides and I made a different choice - I have made a path for myself where there was basically no path. I don’t know how you define accomplishment. I have become a person as I am today, still filled with hope, passion and appreciation for life instead of having become a bitter, depressed person filled with anger and resentments towards people and life in general… for me, it is an accomplishment no matter anyone else acknowledge it or not, I no longer wait for anyone to give me that acknowledgement, I have given that to myself! 

             Our emotion health is as important as our physical health, or not even more important. Even two thousand years ago in the book 'Huangdi Neijing黄帝内经' , also called 'The Inner Classic of the Yellow Emperor' has already stated that how the status of human emotions have greater effects on our organs accordingly... since emotions were regarded more as feminine attributes, there are regarded as less desirable traits as we often hear people saying especially to guys like ‘boys don’t cry’, or ‘men should not show emotions’ etc. … this ongoing battle between male and female by disowning, disrespecting and dishonoring the opposite genders is by default a lost battle. It will only cause the further turmoil and imbalance in one’s own energy field because in the end as a soul entity, we all have been incarnated as both male and females in one life or another. A soul is androgynous by its nature, both male and female regardless which one you have chosen as a dominate characteristic to experience this lifetime of yours, so whatever you has disowned, dishonored to another will be done to yourself in one way or another, in this lifetime or next…I hope that for the sake of our children, there will be soon enough focus and awareness on our children’s emotional health(EQ), at least as much as their IQ intelligence in the school and in the society, and also raising the awareness of our way of parenting our children: What do we want for our children? An intelligent one? A happy one? A both? If can’t both, which one should we prioritize?... Those questions should be answered by each of us, should we keep doing what we have always been doing without questioning? Or is it time for change, not only for our children but also for ourselves?!

              Yes, life is like a series of movies. There is a delicate balance which each of us struggles to reach. Too much of getting involved, you may have the risk of losing yourself in the role you are playing; if not getting involved at all, why are you even here for?! How will you ever know the height of ecstasy if you don’t know the depth of sorrow? How will you understand the sweetness of love if you have not understood the brokenhearted? How will you ever desire the freedom of your spirit if you have not become undesired for the bondage of your bodily form… I guess, you would not have chosen to incarnate into this physical plane if you just want to be a non-physical watcher only. So please have some gratitude towards this life you have been given regardless how it seems imperfect in your eyes! Simply because you CAN, and you still CAN breathe, can feel the cool air flowing into your lungs and energize your whole body and feel the aliveness within you; because you still CAN smell the freshness of the grass and still CAN touch and embrace your loves ones and friends with your arms and your loving eyes… and you still CAN use your physical senses to experience the richness of life offered to you in all its splendor and richness…So be grateful, even towards those you have perceived as negative ones! For those, which have enriched your life and probably have grown you most…

            There is no need to be fearful for the negative emotions or experiences. Our physical body can’t help feeling what has been felt. But don’t judge yourself too harshly for what you have felt or what you have done or not done… it is what it is- just an experience. You have this or that feeling, but you are not your feeling; you have done this or that, but you are not your story; YOU in your essence are beyond all of this or that! So at any given time you can choose to re- connect with your soul, your higher self, or your spirit guides or angels(whatever you believe) to shift from your normal worldly view to a higher point of view, in order to see the bigger picture and to be able to appreciate who you are and where you are at once again... In that way, you will never astray too far from your destined path and you will gradually gain your self confidence and more importance you will gain a renewed sense of hope and faith for your life! Because in truth, by you alone, you can change your entire story as you so choose. There is no real victim here, each human is creator for his/her life story- a happy ending as you desire( hard work is needed of course, no pain no gain) or a sorrowful and  regretful ending as you choose to keep your mind stuck in your own created illusions of victimhood or scarcity… 

             You probably have heard about that the earth is a school, indeed it is. Just as the schools on earth, there are kindergartens, elementary schools, high schools and universities for different levels… each soul is meant to go through different levels of 'schooling' to learn the lessons to further its soul journey. If one particular lesson is not learned, you have to redo it and master it until your soul/higher self is satisfied in order to move to a new level. There is no judgement or punishment from God/Goddess or our divine Father/mother(whatever you prefer), the only judgment is your higher self, your own soul/spirit will judge onto yourself… Each soul entity has its own uniqueness, its own strength and weakness and at different level of its soul journey, there is no need to judge or to compare  with other souls- ‘In the end every road leads to Rome and every path leads us back Home’! Please understand this soul journey is not easy for anyone, each has different sets of challenges and blessings, even for those old advanced souls who we today may name them as star seeds or lightworkers. Their initial missions were to bring new energies of love, joy , courage and peace to this much needed earth, to assist earthlings’ consciousness evolution, to bring them back to the God’s unity consciousness, and to raise the unity awareness for the mother earth and all the beings living in it… Yet when those brave yet sensitive souls underestimated the heavy pull of the dense energies on earth, things can get of hand as well. When their sensitivity being mocked and ridiculed, their kindness and empathic nature being taken advantage of, their uniqueness being ostracized and their initial passion for humanity can be at risk of turning into depression, anger and resentments, totally disconnected from who they really are, and what they are here for, and some even get corrupted by their own ego … So brave souls, watch out! Please armor and anchor yourself with the warrior light firmly first before you set out to help the anyone else,  otherwise you will be pulled down and drowned yourself before you could help anyone …

             In the spiritual community, there are often a lot of talks about those ideas about unity consciousness and the Oneness- all the dark and light energy is the same One energy, all the good and bad is just the two sides of the same coin. It is absolutely right, after your consciousness has evolved into such a level- it is supposed to be a natural process of evolution into this so called unity consciousness, it can’t be forced or manipulated in any way. For example, it is like innocence. It is easy for a baby to be innocent, but it is not easy for an adult to be innocent especially after being bruised by people and life- the first innocence is natural, the second innocence is an accomplishment! Same with the unity consciousness, we can’t acquire or even understand what the unity consciousness is all about until we have gone through the different stages of separated consciousness. We have to be brutally honest with ourselves by acknowledging our shadows and darkness in order to heal and transmute those distorted energies within us. Before we are at the point of unity consciousness, we must acknowledge first we are NOT there. Please don’t run away, dear warrior souls, face your own demons head on! You will be surprised one day, those ‘ demons’ you have identified in you was merely some distorted energies within you which just need your attention, care and unconditional love... Once they being healed and transmuted, those ‘demons’ can even turn into your greatest alliances!!

            Yes, life is like a series of movies. When we are watching a good movie, with all the dramas going on the screen, at that moment everything seemed so close and so real to us, we got totally immersed in its story we laughing or tearing like fools… yet if we step out a little, we might notice that all the dramas are no more than some projections from the light beams onto the screen, nothing is real(Could it be possible the real us, our higher selfs are light beings out there projecting all its creation and dramas into some kind of holograms we humans called it reality...? Just an interesting thought.)    … So please remember to step out or step aside, from time to time, to recheck and realign with our soul and our highest purpose: What kind of story are we telling about ourselves and the others? And what kind of story do we want to create for ourselves and the others?... Eventually this shall be answered by us each in facing our Maker, soon or later.

 

 

(Note: Routinely I meditate a few minutes before starting to write, I wrote down whatever my thoughts were taking me at the moment, which I would like to credit to my beloved spirit guides and their nudges and inspirations... Dear readers, right now I can only dedicate one or max. 2 hours per month to write my blog for you until maybe that I become a full-time writer one day, until then please understand that I have a normal life to live and I may not have the time to edit my writing to its perfection… but hopefully my message is forwarded to you successfully nevertheless. My blog is totally non-profit, I try to share my thoughts and my experiences with you, because I have to do so, because it is written in my soul...Love)




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