‘‘The mass crushes beneath it everything which is different, everything
that is excellent, individual, qualified, and select. Anybody who is not like
everybody, who does not think like everybody, runs the risk of being
eliminated.’’
--- Ortega y Gasset
What a strange world we are living in-
it has its ways to make things good bad or bad good;
it has its ways to make a kindness like a weakness;
it has its ways to make lightheartedness seem
foolish and incompetent…
For such a very long time, my dear inner child
though I have known your sorrow
though I have known your frustrations
though I have known your loneliness
though I have known how this world has been unkind to you
unfortunately I was the part of that world-
thinking you are just being too dramatic, too needy
too demanding, too sensitive, too this or too that…
In truth, I could not admit to myself-
Behind all the compromises of myself was
that desperate desire of trying to fit in this world;
and behind that desperate desire was a very wounded inner child of mine
desperately longing for being loved and accepted …
For such a long time, my dear inner child
I have betrayed you-
because I could not face you
because you were my trauma, my wound
and my deepest secret…
Forgive me, my dear inner child-
for having been such a coward and such a fool
for not having understood my own ignorance-
that I may be able to run away from the entire world
yet I can never ever be able to run away from you,
from my own self, my own being…
Forgive me, my dear inner child
I will never again turn my back to you even the whole
world does;
I will never again silence you even the others try to;
I will be there ready to wipe your tears when you are let
down;
I will be there ready to laugh with you even the others are there laughing at you;
I will be there ready to hold you loving you whenever you feel unworthy
or unloved…
So how are you doing today, my darling?
Are you feeling little blue right now?
What about me taking you out for a date-
escape from all the must-do seriousness of life for a
moment?
get away from all the rigidity, dullness and rules for
a while?
What about diving into the deep blue sea
chasing some beautiful mermaid?
Or, what about riding the winged house Pegasus
playing with the rainbow halo under the sun?
Or, what about you and me having some caramel popcorn
enjoying some quiet cozy time together under the shining stars ?…
My dear inner child,
You are the spark of God Mother/Father of me
You are the divine essence of me
You are unbound by the universe
Yet I have tried to bound you by the worldly rules...
You came with me into this world-
with your brilliant divine light and joyful lightness
then you shall leave this world with me
with the same untainted light and lightness…
as this is my promise to you, my dear inner child
No more tears of sorrow
No more separation
Not in this incarnation!
This game of life we are playing here on earth
No matter how cold, heavy, cruel or hopeless at times
It is just a game, in the end
No matter how good, how real holographically it may feel like at times
It is still just a game, in the end
So let’s not take this short human life too deadly seriously!
Let's have some fun and find some humor at the same time-
even in the midst of greyness and darkness!
Let's try to keep our heart light like a feather
even though it has its bleedings and patches
(which may has made it more fit for a heart of a wounded warrior, hahaha)
Let’s keep shaking off any darkness or heaviness
Let’s leave them to where they belong
Because, where we are going has no place for them…
My dear inner child,
Let's drop everything going out for a date
Let's stop being a responsible adult for a second
Let's just be silly having some silly laughter
Let me see what you are really made of...
Because, I 'd like very much to see -
a better world, a more beautiful world
through your wondrous eyes...
Loveđź’–
