No more the Old Story of Tears

A woman came to me for help, she looked distressed and broken. 

Even though, she is well aware-

that she has been in a toxic and unbalanced relationship for years;

that she has not been loved or respected the way she deserves;

that she may never be able to change her man nor their relationship...

But still she holds tightly onto her old life- the only kind of life she has known…

‘Why?’ I questioned her.

“Why not?!’’ She tried to defend herself,

‘ We made our vow that we shall stay together through thick and thin;

we have such a long history together, it is not easy to restart a new life;

we have children and there are responsibilities;

I still love him- there is no love not painful…’’

(Who says that, woman, love is supposed to be painful?!

Loving is not painful but loving a wrong person is painful!)

It is interesting how we talk ourselves into things and also out of things;

It is interesting to observe how we speak to ourselves and about ourselves;

Who is there telling the story?

Who is there speaking really?

Is it your ego self or your higher self speaking?

Is it your 3D programmed mind or your divine mind speaking?

Is it your wounded inner child or your grownup version speaking?

Is it your distorted feminine energy or your unbalanced masculine energy speaking?

Is the voice from you or from your mother or your mother’s mother?...

So please tell me, who is there speaking to me right now?!

You may deceive others with your words;

You may even have yourself deceived;

But your energy can never lie–

which is constantly broadcasting to the entire universe

who you really are and the true story about you

despite what you say or portrait to the world otherwise…

Just like different radio wave lengths,

you pick up the signals of certain wave lengths

which you are attuned to, not more not less

(If you have been in attunement with certain wave length, certain vibration for longer period of time, you might get certain false sense of security and feel ‘home’ in that familiar delusional reality of your making. But this is not home for your soul. Your soul will always long for its journey home by raising its soul energy gradually- in order to return to God, to the source, to that ALL loving energy where it originates from. That is why, many souls from earthly realm are so distressed because of the inner conflicts between the soul and the body, between the spirit and the mind. This kind of distress and agony in souls can be expressed through different physical illness, even the total soul withdrawing its energy from its physical body which leads to death eventually or earlier death than planned.)

Everything is energy

Your words are energy

Your thoughts are energy

Your actions are energy

So be careful with what kind of energy you are attuned to-

you are manifesting it into existence as we speak in this very moment

with your words, with your thought, with your emotions…

Please keep yourself reminded, woman-

You will attract what you are, that is the law of attraction.

Your energy speaks louder than –

what you try to convince or portrait to the world otherwise

Please keep yourself reminded, woman-

that you are not here to do it right by the others

You are here solely to do it right by yourself

You belong to no one and no one belongs to you

You are not here to fulfill a relationship

You are here to fulfill yourself through relationships

Self love is not selfish, it is the foundation of healthy loving relationships!

So be like a diligent scientist-

examining your thought patterns and unhealed emotion triggers;

So be like a warrior woman-

Cutting through all the bullshits no matter how painful it is;

Be like a chain breaker-

Breaking the old cycles and paradigms which no longer serve your highest good

no matter how established how rooted it is…

Don’t ever underestimate the power of the ripple effect of a divine-inspired idea. It can penetrate the mountains, cross the oceans and seed into human consciousness for the right time to grow, to blossom, to express … So please seed wisely.

Dear heartbroken, I am not here to tell you to stay or to leave. If that is what you expected from me, I am afraid I have to disappoint you, that you need figure it out by listening to your inner voice; But in order to be able to hear your inner voice clearly, you need to establish close communication with your soul, by turning your attention to the external world into your own inner world; by giving yourself love and energy instead of needing energy being fed by others; by clearing the garbages from your energy field; by learning about your own emotional energy or mental energy etc.; by distinguishing which is your energy which is other's energy'received' by you…who knows,  if we shall meet again in the future, I hope you will tell me a different story of yours- not the old story of tears but a new story of love, joy and abundance……

Journey Home

If I haven’t known-

the pain of abandonment

from my earthy parents

Would I have known you-

My divine mother?!

If I haven’t experienced –

the sorrow of unspoken loneliness

even among my crowds

Would I have longed for you-

My soul mate?!

If I haven’t felt-

the bitterness of separation

from my own fragmented soul

Would I have looked for you –

my spirit guides?!...

When the intuition was ignored,

I looked for the eternity from the mortals-

my failure was destined;

When the inner guidance was ignored,

I looked for the unconditional love-

from the conditioned man,

My disappointment was guaranteed;

I did not know any better, then.

What our human sense desires –

may be fulfilled by another human being;

What our higher soul desires –

yet can’t never be fulfilled by another human being

Because , "Human, all too human..."

as Nietzsche put it.

Here is my contemplation for the soon passing year:

All kinds of life journeys –

either successful or unsuccessful

 lead us to the journey back to one’s self in the end;

All forms of relationships –

either good or bad
serve us as transitory lessons to prepare us for

our ultimate relationship with

God/Buddha/Tao/Life force/Higher consciousness
Holy Spirit/Divine mother/Divine father

Whatever you call it;

Whatever you believe in your heart…

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year2020!

Tears of God

There is a beautiful poem about –

a girl crying over her lost lover…

I was the diamond

You chose the rubies;

I was the ocean

You wanted the rivers;

I was the moon

You chased the stars…

Thus, I keep wondering: If God is conscious,

wouldn’t He/She be tearing over his fallen children?…

I gave you my light

You walked in shadows;

I showed you the path

You got lost in gardens;

I bestowed you with abundance of an emperor

You chose to settle in poverty of a beggar;

I brought you into this life as a child of Mine

You left this place as a child of Man only...

Lost in translations

I am a translator

I can translate for you-

from word to word intellectually

if you meet me only

in an intellectual space

I am a translator

I can translate for you-

from unspoken words to words

if you meet me in a heart space

I am a translator

I can translate for you-

from the unseen realm to the seen world

if you meet me in a soul space

Having worked with words long enough to understand-

both the power of words and the manipulation of words

with truth being covered by beautiful yet deceitful words;

with essence being hidden under the cloak of the narratives;

with great mystery being lost in translations…

Just like I try to capture the beauty of a butterfly-

by thinking about its biology and its winged ‘engineering’

In that very moment-

I am missing its beauty

I am missing its joy

Just like I try to figure out the mystery of Jesus from Nazareth

by studying his birth facts and memorizing his Gospels

by researching the places he may or may not have been

In that seemingly clever minded space-

I am missing his true teaching

I am missing my own healing

You may have your choice,

I may have mine

You may choose me as your translator

I may choose not to waste my words with you

You may have your will

I may have mine

You may choose me as your translator

I may choose to serve my secrect world to you-

translating the sound of a chipping bird into sweetness;

translating the color of autumn into richness;

translating the passing clouds into sacred meditation;

translating the worldly loss into divine blessings;

translating the tears of your sorrow into the pearls of your strength...

Yet, even the best translator can’t serve you better than you serve yourself

through learning the language of  the universe by yourself

through no translator but communicating directly with your God

There, you answer to your call 
and I answer to mine......

Once I was a beggar

Once I was a beggar-

willing to accept toxic behaviors from my love

I told myself it was out of my royalty

In truth it was out of my own insecurity

Once I was a beggar-

willing to bend over for other’s validations

I told myself that was what takes

In truth it was out of  my low self-esteem

Once I was a beggar-

willing to sacrifice my own desires and feelings

I told myself it was out of kindness and selfishlessness

In truth it was out of my guilt and unworthiness

Once I was beggar-

willing to please or even manipulate others for temporary gains

I told myself I would not have deserved it otherwise

In truth it was out of my fear and faithlessness  

Once I was beggar-

whom was prisoned by my own poverty consciousness mind

My mind has taught me how to cope to be a child of men-
restricted, fearful and feeling lacking...

Yet my mind has forgotten about-

I am also a child of God, a child of the infinity-

free, fearless and forever expansive and abundant…

Flowers don’t stop blossoming-

just because they are unaware of each other’s beauty;

Diamond doesn’t stop being a diamond-

just because it is being covered by the dirt;

Moon doesn’t stop shining-

jut because no one appreiate its light;

You don’t stop being divine

just because no man recognizes your divinity...

As I have accepted myself as a child of man-

Everything in this physical world is materialized for my soul evolution;

As I have accepted myself also as a child of God-

within my human heart there is a gateway to ALL the love existing in the univere 

within my human soul there is a doorway to All the abundance existing in the univere
I have had All the treasures within me all along while I was out there searching for them 
I have had All the love within me all along  while I was out there begging for it ...
Thus, I have stopped being a beggar for good.

What do you see?

You see a magnificent tree,

But, do you recognize-

 the sun, the rain, the earth

and all the elements attributing 

to its magnificence?

You see someone’s success,

But, do you recognize-

 the tears and sweats

behind its shine and glamour?

You see her beauty 

with your physical eyes,

But, do you recognize-

 her spirit with your inner eyes?

You see the delusions 

in your dreams,

But, do you recognize-

 the delusions in your waking life?...

When I look at you,

Am I looking at-

 a 'shell' housing a beautiful soul?

Or a beautiful shell -

housing an empty soul?

When I speak to you,

Am I speaking to-

the ego self of yours?

Or the authentic self of yours?

When I meet you,

Are we meeting-

in the space of minds?

in the depth of souls?

Or just in the surface of bodies?

……

A True Healer

A mediocre doctor will give you

medicine to ease your symptoms;

A better doctor will try to analyze

your symptoms in a more holistic fashion;

An extraordinary doctor will look deeper

for the connections between the physical health

and the emotion or mental health;

Yet a real healer will go even further-

beyond the physical and mental bodies

seeking within one’s soul for

the answer to the root cause of all the symptoms.

Quite often-

A mediocre doctor will be appreciated for his medicine;

A better doctor will be appraised for his knowledge;

An extraordinary doctor will be admired for his insight;

A real healer will yet be resented or even punished–

for pointing out that you are living a life not aligned with your soul purpose;

for saying that YOU are mainly responsible for the manifestations of your illness;

for trying to guide you towards the journey of self healing instead of giving you a quick fix…

It is easier to be relieved by pills;

It is easier to be saved by someone else;

It is easier to blame others or circumstances

It is just too painful to admit to one’s self that –

‘ It is me that have been so caught up in my own ego and the worldly interests;

It is me that have been entertaining those low vibrational people and energies;

It is me that have been ignoring my soul’s promptings for all those years…’

It is so easy to forget that we are more than just physical beings-

we are the beings of trinity(body, mind and spirit)

All three aspects shall be balanced not only-

for the purpose of good physical health but also for the soul ascensions.

Our modern way of living has created very off-balanced human beings:

So much of our energies are focus on our body conscious and mental abilities

The spirit/soul aspect has been largely suppressed or ignored-

the incapability for soul to express itself freely through our body and mind

naturally those energy blocks will be manifested in the forms of physical illness

or mental distress or distortions

A true healer does not think she is better than anyone -

because she understands that healing is everyone’s innate nature;

(Some may have mastered their skills better than the other)

A true healer understands the power of self healing through her healings;

A true healer not only has a kindness of an innocent child

but also the inner strength of a lion!

A true healer is a true warrior, a wounded warrior-

She, who has been wounded time after time

Yet, she has never lost her faith!

She has healed her inner child wounds -

by giving the love to herself even no one else does;

She has healed her own shadows and darkness-

by taming them instead of eliminating them;

She has healed her past hurts and heartbreaks-

by transmuting the energies from negative to positive, from heavier to lighter;

She has healed the suppressed and distorted divine feminine energy-

by honoring both the feminine and masculine energies within herself;

She has healed all the karmic wounds passed down from her ancestors-

by stopping all the old negative patterns at her place…

A true healer as she is will not hesitate to tell you:

Mediate on your soul solely!

(before body, mind and spirit are in total alignment)

Listen neither to your mind nor to your heart

Listen merely to the gentle whispers of your soul…