the Story of a Little soul

              As a beloved child of the Almighty God, a little soul (I will address it as ‘she’ here just for its gender simplification) was living in an ultimate state of blissfulness and being nurtured, protected by the eternal divine love… She was such a joyful, creative soul and she loved playing with her soul brothers and sisters. Wherever she went, there was much joy and laughs and she was dearly loved and cared by all… For eons time she was in her peace and contentment from that blissfulness, that godly perfection, nothing less of perfection was experienced in her consciousness yet until one day out of blue, an idea came to her and started to grow bigger and bugging her more and more. In the end she could not contain the stirred feeling inside her, so she went to her beloved mother/father God for help.

          ‘My dear mother/father God, you are the creator of all the heavens and universes, and you are the all-perfect and all-powerful God Almighty. Since I am your beloved child, I am made perfect in your image as well and everything inside and outside of me cannot be anything else but perfect right? But, if I am already perfect as I am, why am I feeling some kind of uneasiness and discontentment arisen within me right now? ’ questioned the little soul.

          ‘My beloved child, you will be always perfect in my eye!’ smiled God, ‘You soul have just grown and matured more. Otherwise you would not have come to you with this question- this is known as the ‘Divine discontentment’, which it is quite normal phenomenon at a more matured stage of soul evolution of my children’’.

          ‘But, you just told me that I am perfect, we are perfect. Why do our souls need to evolve more?’ the Little soul felt confused.

         ‘ We are perfect as we are. But at the same time, God is not a constant concept- that is human’s idea of God. God is forever evolving and expanding consciousness-there was no limit or end to a God consciousness- here again, it is a human idea that when a thing reaches its perfection, there is no more room for improvement or expansion.’

          ‘Ok, tell me more about the human life!’ the little soul felt sense of excitement. She had heard about the stories about her soul brothers and sisters choosing to incarnate into physical forms, especially popular with the human forms…

        ‘As I have told you that we are perfect as we are. But there is a DIFFERENCE between just being in our perfection and knowing our own perfection!’ God paused trying to use a few simpler words to explain something immensely complicated to his lovely Little soul, ‘ As you are my children, you all are blessed with this divine perfection. While you are at your heavenly home, you are just naturally living in your perfection because our heavenly home is a home of unity consciousness, of the oneness- there is nothing outside of the perfection and the Oneness. But in order to know your own perfection objectively, you will be needing a mirror, a reference point. For example, you are living in perfection,  but you may not know you are living in your perfection, it is like the bliss of ignorance. So once you have experienced the imperfection, you will have a new intimate knowing of your own perfection…’

          The little soul did not understand everything God said to her but she listened attentively because she loved and trusted her mother/father God with her whole soul and she knew that her mother/father God has immeasurable wisdom. God continued, ‘When my children like yourself grow out of your infant stage, your soul will naturally grow into a ‘ teenage stage ‘which marks with the sense of divine discontentment like what you have described to me, which will make you feel a bit restless desiring and seeking some kind of soul adventure in order to reach to a place like ME, a real God/Goddess who knows the totality of one’s Self- the Great Spirit in an very intimate way!’

           God paused in silence before he continued, HIS etheric face seemed to change into a more of seriousness, ‘But, my dear child, know, this kind of journey is not without risk! When you choose to incarnate to a human body,  you can’t bring along with your entire soul with you because this pure and godly soul energy is too strong and too powerful for a localized human body to contain, so you only take a piece of your soul with you to the earth realm…which can be very tricky at times. For a new soul as well as for old souls(they often carry more karmic baggage), it can be quite disoriented for any free soul being forced into certain regulated family rules and social norms, especially those souls chose intentionally to birth into a toxic family to help or to work out some past karma can be extremely challenging at times! Many of your brothers and sisters have left home long ago, but they have not returned. It is not Me who judge them it is often their own human mind are placing judgement upon themselves…’

            The little soul knew this is very important message from her mother/father God, she tried to take as much as you could into her soul memory, she had a strong feeling that this information can be very critical for her home returning one day. God spoke again, ‘So this piece of godly soul is hidden under the chamber of your heart. If you don’t want to forget about who you really are and where your real home is, in the mist of incarnation forgetfulness and disorientations and even more more human dramas, you need to constantly reconnect with your heart, and from the chamber of your heart, there you will be hearing the voice of your voice if you learn how to calm and master your human senses… Remember, my child,  don't forget to feed self love and attention to your own heart and soul no matter how dark it gets for you at times, because that piece of soul hidden in your heart chamber will be your home away from home and will lead you back to me one day ... Remember, who you really are, my child; Remember to raise your spiritual sight over your human sight because things are not always what they seem...Remember, sometimes your seemingly human failure could be the blessings in disguise; Remember, sometimes your brothers or sisters may 'play' a role as your enemy in order to serve your awareness or awakening... after all everything and everyone you encounter is your own reflection of who you are - so you can know your Self as me as God.. .' God uttered lovingly and gently.

         ‘I promise, I'll remember that! I'll remember who I am! And I'll remember you and my real home…’ the little soul could not help but to repeat her promises trying to ensure her loving and concerning mother/father God but in the meantime she was unaware the gravity of those promises and how difficult it would be to fulfill them!! For the very first time, her consciousness felt sense of uncomfortable sadness before she leaving her beloved mother/father God, her heavenly home and companions...the rest is the history.  Looking back at all her earthly incarnations -she loved and been loved; she hated and been hated,  she played victims and she played aggressors; she played women and she played men, and she had her moments of joy and she had her moments of sorrow, and her hearts had been broken and healed yet she has always had a deep knowing inside her despite of her human ego mind trying to convince her otherwise: there is a Big secret hidden under her heart chamber waiting to be revealed … Today might be the day, she thought to herself. She could no longer ignore the voice inside because it has become louder and louder! Indeed, how long have I been on this journey? How long and how far have I been journey away from Home? How many lifetimes have I repeated the same shit lesson? And how she felt over and over again the desperation of alienation and loneliness as if her home is somewhere else in the distant stars… and indeed it is! By now, she has known too well the drama of the world, and the drama of herself, so just like that out of blue, she decided NOT to play her human drama anymore! Upon that awareness of hers, she knew that finally she answered the call of her soul and she knew this will be her last life because she is going HOME…

           Back to today. A war in 2022? It is unbelievable and unacceptable!!!  As my heart and prayers go to the all the people who are suffering from this war, I am saddened by the very fact of the history is repeating itself again! the same kind of drama is being replayed under our eyes again! Do we humans ever learn from our past mistakes?! We are like the hamsters on the wheels keeping running yet not getting anywhere except repeating the same cycle over and over again?! No matter which side you think you are standing right now, we are actually standing on the same side- we all are brothers and sisters! The little soul is inside me as well as inside you; the story of the little soul can be my story as well as yours, if you choose so.

            There maybe some souls who have lost more their ways; there maybe some souls who want to play the drama little longer; they may appear opposite to us, even enemy to us in our human drama playing, but in spirit realm, we all brothers and sisters! I am not here to tell you either to fight or not to fight, the choice shall NOT be manipulated by any man’s egoistic agendas, the choice shall be made by each individual soul- if the soul decides to lay down its physical body in order to know its own love and compassion in such an ‘intimate’ manner, so be it!

          So before you deciding to hurt, to kill, to take the revenge on someone, think twice! Seek NOT justice in terms of your mind but your heart! Because, this world is made of so many rules and laws yet so many of injustices and unfairness. So you may buy your way out with money, or power, or simply getting lucky… but there is no single soul in the universe can trick its way out of the divine justice: the law of the cause& effect’- what goes around comes around indeed! So before you doing anything bad, don’t check with your mind, check with your heart/soul- you heart knows better and your soul knows ever better! You may not be able to save anyone, or save the world, at lease you can try to save your heart; you may never become a hero in the eyes of other humans, at least you can try to be your own hero, in the ‘eyes’ of your own soul…

       As we know, pain and suffering are greatly feared by we humans because our intense attachments to our physical sensory experiences. Yet, there is certain spiritual value in our experiences of pain and sufferings. Not only because we humans tend to learn our lessons better through them, but also they can ignite some of the divine seeds buried and forgotten in human souls like compassion, understanding and forgiveness… this is not always easy because often our ego stands in the way but nevertheless, even the pain and suffering can be served as an opportunity of soul awakenings and soul remembrance of who we really are, and what we are to one another!

     Remember the little soul before she left her heavenly home for the first time, how exciting she was about becoming a human being, to be able to walk, talk, to dance, to sing, to touch, to feel and to experience, to explore her own consciousness in such intimate ways with the other human beings?!… Since when we humans have become so dull and so insensitive to all the beauty, all the abundances and all the blessings around us…Life is a gift, so is with our human life!So live deeply!  We don’t have time to hate, to kill, to hurt each other; we don’t even know if we still will be here tomorrow; so let’s use the little bit time left to love each other, to bring joy instead of sorrow or pain to each other… don’t we all have had that enough?!!!

      We don’t have to wait until crossing the veil to the other side to hug each other, to hold each other’s hand in our spirit forms... Why can we do that already now- Isn't that a much better idea than to war with each other?! Let’s go out together smelling some roses or hugging some trees; let’s walk together bare feet on the newly rained grass playing chasing; let’s sing and dance together under the beautiful moonlight; let’s sit shoulder to shoulder feeling the caressing of the sunrays and enjoying each other's company in silence; let’s just take a deep breath feeling the gratitude of simply being alive and looking at each other’s eyes deeply reminding who we really are and what we are meant to each other in the depth of our souls…💗

 

A date with my inner child

‘‘The mass crushes beneath it everything which is different, everything that is excellent, individual, qualified, and select. Anybody who is not like everybody, who does not think like everybody,                   runs the risk of being eliminated.’’

 --- Ortega y Gasset            

 

What a strange world we are living in-

it has its ways to make things good bad or bad good;

it has its ways to make a kindness like a weakness;

it has its ways to make lightheartedness seem

foolish and incompetent…

 

For such a very long time, my dear inner child

though I have known your sorrow

though I have known your frustrations

though I have known your loneliness

though I have known how this world has been unkind to you

unfortunately I was the part of that world-

thinking you are just being too dramatic, too needy

too demanding, too sensitive, too this or too that…

In truth, I could not admit to myself-

Behind all the compromises of myself was

that desperate desire of trying to fit in this world;

and behind that desperate desire was a very wounded inner child of mine

desperately longing for being loved and accepted …

For such a long time, my dear inner child

I have betrayed you-

because I could not face you

because you were my trauma, my wound

and my deepest secret…

 

Forgive me, my dear inner child-

for having been such a coward and such a fool

for not having understood my own ignorance-

that I may be able to run away from the entire world

yet I can never ever be able to run away from you,

from my own self, my own being…

 

Forgive me, my dear inner child

I will never again turn my back to you even the whole world does;

I will never again silence you even the others try to;

I will be there ready to wipe your tears when you are let down;

I will be there ready to laugh with you even the others are there laughing at you;

I will be there ready to hold you loving you whenever you feel unworthy or unloved…

 

So how are you doing today, my darling?

Are you feeling little blue right now?

What about me taking you out for a date-

escape from all the must-do seriousness of life for a moment?

get away from all the rigidity, dullness and rules for a while?

What about  diving into the deep blue sea

chasing some beautiful mermaid?

Or, what about riding the winged house Pegasus

playing with the rainbow halo under the sun?

Or, what about you and me having some caramel popcorn

enjoying some quiet cozy time together under the shining stars ?…

 

My dear inner child,

You are the spark of God Mother/Father of me

You are the divine essence of me

You are unbound by the universe

Yet I have tried to bound you by the worldly rules...

You came with me into this world-

with your brilliant divine light and joyful lightness

then you shall leave this world with me

with the same untainted light and lightness…

as this is my promise to you, my dear inner child

No more tears of sorrow

No more separation

Not in this incarnation!

 

This game of life we are playing here on earth

No matter how cold, heavy, cruel or hopeless at times

It is just a game, in the end

No matter how good, how real holographically it may feel like at times

It is still just a game, in the end

 

So let’s not take this short human life too deadly seriously!

Let's have some fun and find some humor at the same time-

even in the midst of greyness and darkness!

Let's try to keep our heart light like a feather

even though it has its bleedings and patches

(which may has made it more fit for a heart of a wounded warrior, hahaha)

Let’s keep shaking off any darkness or heaviness 

Let’s leave them to where they belong

Because, where we are going has no place for them…

 

My dear inner child,

Let's drop everything going out for a date

Let's stop being a responsible adult for a second

Let's just be silly having some silly laughter

Let me see  what you are really made of...

Because, I 'd like very much to see -

a better world, a more beautiful world 

through your wondrous eyes...

Love💖

Good or Bad

 

 

You should be glad for-

Not look like

what you have been through

good or bad

 

You should be grateful for-

whom you have become

with what you have been through

good or bad

Deep within your soul memories

You know who you really are-

and who you have been

You have played both good and bad in your past lives

So why judge - ?!

the judgment made upon the others is always -

the judgment made upon thyself...

There are filled with people in this world-

always ready to praise your good and profit from your good

and always ready to judge and condemn your bad...

Because those are cowards who often bark loudest-

 playing so eagerly the judge upon you

just in order to avoid their own bad,

 their own darkness and their own emptiness...

 In this ocean of your consciousness

those good or bad in your life are -

merely some created waves or rising or falling ...

And if you desire-

you can be like the ocean remain unaffected 

by those waves big or small...

When you become that ocean

there will be no more good or bad waves

they are just waves dancing 

with the ocean of your consciousness

in harmony and in eternity...

( P.S.    Happy new year to you all!  May us leave the old way of thinking and being in 2021 and may us hope 2022 will be a better year for all of us- in finding the ways to our inner peace and happiness regardless what will happen outside of us!💖🙏)

Just some random thoughts...

 

I am not afraid if you would fall in love with me

But I am afraid that you would fall in love with me-

for the wrong reason

 

I am not afraid to be myself

But I am afraid to be too much of myself in front of you..

You may accept and befriend me

if I show you my mediocre intelligence;

You may stab a knife on my back

if I show you my extraordinary intelligence

 

I am not afraid of owning my abundance

But I am afraid of showing my abundance to you..

When you are jealous at my abundance,

You don’t know half of my story-

If you have known my silent struggles and tears,

Will you still want my abundance... ?!

 

Sometimes I wonder myself-

how old is this soul of mine beneath this still youthful cloak?!...

So much I can recognize myself in you

Yet so little you can recognize me in me...

In this earthly realm I call home-

everywhere feels like home

yet at the same time -

no where feels like my real home...

 

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A man dwells sorely on his intellect

Knows NOT the beauty of his world;

A man fluctuates sorely in his emotions

Knows NOT the stability of his world;

A man disconnects sorely from the Spirit-

Lives a life with NO hope

regardless how much he may attain 

or accumulated in the physical world-

because he lives in an existence which does not sustain 

his very soul…

 (* Channeled by the beloved archangel Michael)

 

 

A beautiful autumn afternoon

 

Deceive not-

By how I look or

where I come from  

Deceive not yourself either-

By what you wear or

how many languages you can speak

 

We ALL are here-

with the different karmic or non-karmic reasons

with the different choices of costumes and rolls

Yet we ALL are here playing the same game-

the great game so called ‘ human life’!

 

If you take a first glimpse of me-

You may see only a stranger, with all kinds of odds and differences from yours;

If you take another look at me-

You may no longer see a stranger, because you see that my blood is as red as yours;

If you take another closer look at me-

You may see a friend there, the earth can be a lonely place,

you may need a friend and so do I…

If you take an even deeper look through my eyes into my soul-

You may recognize me, that I am your soul sister/brother and you are mine…

 

As the autumn sun is cozying through my cheeks

As the rich hues of the autumn leaves are feasting my eyes

As the crispy tones and chippings from the unknown birds are indulging my ears

As the little muddy yet fertile ground is mothering my feet nurturing my physical vessel

As a stranger walking passing by is giving me a kind smile without any special reason

and his dog is leading the way sniffing around happily and playfully …

At this very moment,

Every bits and pieces, in its own way

Every different hues and ingredients, in its own fashion

has contributed directly or indirectly to -

Such a perfect beautiful autumn afternoon…

 

 

 

Letter to my dear daughter

My dear daughter,

           You are 18 now- an important milestone for you, not only in an official sense that now you can buy alcohol and take drive license etc. but also in a sense that you are no longer a little girl, you have become a woman! As kind, smart and beautiful as you are and we are immensely proud of who you have become!

         I understand there are certain things which are more sensitive, awkward and even little taboo to talk about between parents and children, for example, sexuality. Now it is time for me to address a bit about this sensitive topic, because it is too important to leave it unaddressed or leave to you to figure it out all by yourself as my parents did to me which made me question this method because I had to go through many unnecessary struggles due to the lacking of emotional support and understanding and proper guidance from my parents... I don't mean that now you as my daughter should do what I say, instead I want you to feel that I am with you and I am here ready to validate your feelings whatever you feel is right for you... therefore I will not brush aside this topic even though you might be defensive about it, because I have come to the understanding of the importance of this through my own painful struggles that this is too important to brush over or off. As young as you are, filled with hope and dreams, as innocent and vulnerable as you are, as a mother, I feel compelling to share some of my thoughts with you, to prepare you for the adulthood as much I can because I can see how in the near future your attitude towards sexuality will have profound impact on your experience of sexuality and the quality of your relationship with others and yourself... 

          As you know, everything is energy. And sexual energy is the most potent and most creative energy in the universe because it has created the entire universe, the stars, the planets and the humans... there is the eternal dance of sacred love between the polarity energies which in human expressed as male and female principles. Yet since human's lower mind driven by ego and self serving has become such a dominant in human's conscious life, automatically the human's higher mind was forced to the background and has remained dormant for thousand years. As the consequences of this shift in human consciousness- the matter victorying over the human spirit, many holy men or sage were prosecuted, killed or forced to hide underground, so were those important scripts and documents of sacred knowledges forced to go understand. Maybe it has to be so as esoteric knowledge unknown to the mass for our own protection before the mass consciousness is ready to receive such teachings. Otherwise it will be misinterpreted and manipulated for controlling and gaining power for sex supremacy through creating fear, shame and guilt in sexuality in each other... there are already much distorted energies in our human collective psyche originated from the past traumas, guilt, fear and mistrust related to sex and genders which has been screaming for addressing and healing, yet most people don't want to talk about it,  because this' big elephant' in their closets has become too big to to deal with it, so it is easier to choose escapism through drugs, alcohol or senseless sex... I am afraid, if one day, all those ancient wisdom and sacred knowledge are completely destroyed or disappeared, there will be no more hope for humans, without any of divine guidance. Human consciousness will fall deeper and deeper into the abyss of the darkness of self tormenting... So be respectful and show reverence towards these sacred teachings and divine guidance because they are our souls' very last straw!!! 

          Sorry my thoughts were 'wandering' a bit too far from the course once again. Back to you, I have witnessed how you have become a pretty confident and open-minded young lady who can be kind to people and yet at the same time be able to stand for yourself which make me very proud because I could not do that at your age. I was very quiet, shy and introvert and always preferred to be cocooned in my own little world with my books, my trees, my birds , my imagined angelic friends than to be with people...I have been working diligently since with my own issues and my trust towards people. But nevertheless, surely you can be my teacher in something and I can be your teacher in something else even though we are a mother and a daughter. My experiences, my perspectives and my spirituality can still provide you with some valuable insights and guidance especially in the areas of emotion and spirituality related to sexuality hopefully. So bear with me, please.

         I remember that you joked about how many of your friends are having their boyfriends and how you are being picky with a bit tease of ‘such a picky daughter must have such a picky mum’ thing… I know it is quite acceptable and normal for parents in Sweden that their kids are allowed to have sexual relationship as earlier as 15 years old and maybe even earlier in some cases. Of course there are different social norms from different countries and places, as much as I respect how people choose to live their lives but I just have some different opinions regarding this. Trust me, it has very little to do with where I come from, I was regarded as a black sheep as much in my family as outside of my family because my mind and my thoughts appeared too different and too strange to the people around me… It has taken me many years of self struggles to come in term with myself- 'If this is the way that I am made by God, who can be there against me-HIS way?!' So listen, there is no rush with finding a boyfriend. You don’t need to prove your worth to anyone and neither do you need to compete with anyone, as the moon doesn't need to compete with the sun, as a rose doesn't need to compete with a lily... you are more than good enough! You don't need to find a boyfriend or a friend to confirm how good you are and how wonderful you are, always willingly to give that confirmation to yourself regardless! … No matter how controversial I might sound to you right now, please keep your mind open because you've already known that I love you and I want the very best for you. Just take a few minutes to reflect upon what I have written to you and simply take those which resonates with your heart and leave the rest. I am not here to tell you what to do or what not to do. Here I just would like to raise your awareness about some neglected areas related to sexuality, so you would be more prepared(may never enough though according to a mother...), especially in the areas of your emotional wellbeing and your mental stability at this stage of yours. I believe today's teens have already known more than enough information about the sexuality in the physical areas, so I will not address that here.

           I know, that we are living in a western world which is very much about freedom, including the freedom of sexuality. But this lacking of deeper understanding that we humans are more than just some physical beings but also we are energetic beings of soul/spirit. When we interact with one another, we are not only communicating with our words and our body languages, we are communicating energetically as well, depends on how you are sensitive and in tune with energies. Generally speaking, females are more easily to pick up energies and affected by them as well because of lacking of understanding. Take a simple example, you know someone that you always feel exhausted after you have spent time with him/her, you don't really know why, but you know how you feel. In that case, you should always trust your feeling more than your logic mind. What was going on is: you two can chat normally and friendly but your energies are communicating on a deeper level at the same time, words can lie, energies can't! If you are a sensitive empath, you can be ever more easily read and take on others' energies unwillingly, it can be very burdensome and heavy on your emotional energetic body if you don't learn how to close your receptors at will for your own protection at times... That is to say, when you merge with someone sexually, you two are communicating in an even deeper and a more intimate way, you will not only merge with your physical body, but also your emotional body and your soul essence energy... so what you take with you from another person is not only the passion released but also you take with you his soul essence which consists of not only his own cell memories but also the soul memories he has taken from the other people who he has sexually merged with previously, unless those negative and discorded energy cords being consciously healed and cleared off … There are so many people on this planet get diseased physically, emotionally and mentally not knowing about their energetic fields have been 'messed up' by this so called modern freedom mode-'non-strings-attached-sex' without emotional involvements, but in truth you will be involved more than you think! So you will be unconsciously take on and carry on each other's soul memories and karmic  burdens through this sexual exchange because you have forgotten the complexity of your being and the complexity of the energy exchange especially the powerful sexual energy exchange!... Believe or not, that all forms of diseases first will appear in your energetic field before manifesting into your physical body!  That is to say, it is as important to keep your physical body hygien and clean as it is important to keep your sexuality as clean as possible if you desire to experience more love, peace, harmony, vitality and creativity in your life, otherwise you have to put much of your precious energy in dealing with the burdens which may not be even yours in your energy field, especially your emotional body... Of course, it can be your soul's choice to go through that kind of turmoil and discords in order to understand and to discern your own energy from the others', thus to learn how to protect your own energetic sovereignty... In any case, please don't feel pressured that you have not found your one yet, there is true golden in being choosy and picky when it comes that. Be proud instead, because it does take courage to stand alone without compromising who you are!!!

            Sex can be done in different ways. If it is only done between the legs, then it is only sex nothing else, on this level, humans are no different from the animals; When it is done between two hearts, then this sex energy will rises up to the heart chakra connecting two souls which will make you feel loved; and if continues through the heart portal, there is another higher level that we each human being has potential to reach is to arise this potent energy spiraling up to the crown chakra, or even beyond(you may call it kundalini rising), this powerful uprising energy symbolizes that human’s spirit is rising up to its victory over the matter once again. Because on this level, sexuality has transcend and transmuted to a spiritual height which make the physical sexual activities lesser of importance, your spirit becomes so merged with the grand oceanic LOVE of the Universe, and merged with all-there-is, in that self realization you will know your wholeness and your own sovereignty! This is every single soul's journey, to wander off to experience what it is like to feel separated and fragmented in order to understand, to appreciate the homecoming of your wholeness and your own sovereignty! All roads will lead to Rome, all of you relationships will lead back to you- You are actually seeking for YOU, the wholeness of you, the totality of you, through the reflections of people you are interacting with, they can either reflect back your good quality for your own confirmation or they can reflect back those less desirable qualities of your which you may need to improve or heal... this is another subject and I can explain to you more another time.

             I hope that I am not making it too complicated for you to digest. What I am trying to say here is,  it has been your ego or the other's ego telling you that you are not enough, that you have to find someone or something to complete you which is far from the real truth… but of course it shall not take away the enjoyment of you wanting to connect with other people. But the fundamental difference is that you don't have to be in that needy or controlling energy which is not very attractive. When you learn to owe your energy as‘ I don’t need you but I enjoy to be with you’ , don't get me wrong, I don't mean that you should be vulgar, or loud about it, but be your authentic self - to be comfortable with who you are and owe who you are regardless how the others think of you, that is super attractive!!! Trust me, when you become so confident in who you are, when you become your own sovereignty, you will never need to chase anyone, you will attract best ones who can reflect back your beauty and your greatness... Remember, you don't need compromise who you real are for love. Real love will find you when you insist in being who you are!

           Sexuality is sacred if you choose to see as such; your body is sacred if you choose to treat as such; and you can teach others how to treat you as such accordingly. You can either abuse your body vessel like a trash or you can treat it like a holy temple housing the divine essence of yours... So be very vigilant about taking in any toxins like drugs or alcohol into your body vessel, or allow those toxins or anyone using them to manipulate you. It is far better to do it with clarity in your mind and loving in your heart instead of regretting afterwards... I am your mother. Naturally I want to protect you under my wings forever and ever. But I know I can’t do that for you. No matter how much I want to protect you from any potential dangers and obstacles, I am aware, in the end, it is your life, it is your soul journey, you have to walk through it by yourself. Just remember, whatever you choose to create, you have to experience just that!- so it is with the universal law. So choose with care and enjoy your creative and wonderful manifestations in this world, career wise, relationship wise... As you know, only the sky is the limit... I love you, my sweet angel…💖

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Life is like a series of movies

                  Life is like a series of movies. Even though we are aware that it is just a movie, yet we can’t help with our emotions or feeling joyful, or sad, or angry as the story is unfolding… The thing is if we don’t get our emotions involved, we can certainly avoid the feelings of those negative emotions like sadness, anger and fear, but at the same time those positive emotions would be avoided consciously or unconsciously, because the polarities of human emotions set the tones for our human experiences- how much we are willing to dive into the depth of those negative emotions determines how much we can experience the depth of the opposite emotions, which means if we want to know what ecstasy feels like we have to know what ‘at bottom’ feels like...  if we are here to enjoy a movie, don't we want to experience the movie in its full glory and the rich experience it offers without holding back ourselves?! For the physical part of us, understandably any pain or negative emotion may be unwanted and to be avoided at all costs, yet for the soul/spirit part of us, those are not so unwanted because they can offer a soul with another kind of depth, richness and value added to its soul growth …

               There are already very much of imbalances in human’s emotional bodies due to the past hurts and suppressions from our parents and even from our ancestral lines passing down to us. Those emotional wounds are not less real than the physical wounds, yet due to its hidden characteristics, often it is being treated as less of importance and being brushed aside until our emotional body become overwhelmed and overloaded with the accumulated distressed signals ‘translating’ over to our physical body and also our mental body(they all are intertwisted and interconnected) and manifesting dis-eases in our physical body or our mental body… For too long time emotions have been regarded less of importance in comparison to mental intelligence due to the misconceptions and ideas after thousands years’ human history with more male-dominated patriarchal society which promoted more logical left-brain way of thinking than the feminine way of living, failed to honor the feminine aspects such as emotions and intuition which we humans are much in need of .  Thus, even in today's so called modern people, there are so much discontents and dissatisfactions being built up, and there are so much hunger and longing for the real emotional connection and fulfillment, but unfortunately there are not enough emphasis and right guidance out there for people to lean on especially there are so much of manipulations and fake gurus, teachers out there waiting for exploiting our wounds and weakness…

               I have been down there. Even though I have always had this joyful ‘happy-go-luck’ spirit but people did not appreciate that quality especially at the time, at the place where I was born - everywhere I turned was so much misery- since the whole China was in a stage of exhaustion and paralysis after many years of wars and struggles inside and outside, so many people were much burdened with the basic needs in their life, the mentality of poverty and scarcity was common, and the distorted view of life and psychological aftermath left from their past experiences... as a small child I experienced everything as grey-ish, people often dressed greyish, without color; everyone looked so serious and grey in their facial expressions and even the sky felt very greyish... As misery likes its company but I was not like that in my nature. Everything I was they were not. People even my own parents could not appreciate my strangely joyfulness nature, I guess any sign of happiness was like a reminder of their own misery; they could not appreciate my sensitivity and my uniqueness so I was treated as a black sheep, discredited and poorly treated... So I was very much emotionally traumatized and withdrawn and have taken me years to heal my inner child wounds. So trust me, if I say that I understand your struggles, your sadness, your anger and your loneliness and your helplessness and hopelessness, and I know what it feels like to scream your lungs out but no one hears or no one cares; But trust me also, when I tell you that it does not have to continue to be that way. Though everything happened in my earlier life have set me for a not-so-promising path, even could lead me to a path self destruction, but I did not go down that path. I listened to my intuition and I followed the nudges from my spirit guides and I made a different choice - I have made a path for myself where there was basically no path. I don’t know how you define accomplishment. I have become a person as I am today, still filled with hope, passion and appreciation for life instead of having become a bitter, depressed person filled with anger and resentments towards people and life in general… for me, it is an accomplishment no matter anyone else acknowledge it or not, I no longer wait for anyone to give me that acknowledgement, I have given that to myself! 

             Our emotion health is as important as our physical health, or not even more important. Even two thousand years ago in the book 'Huangdi Neijing黄帝内经' , also called 'The Inner Classic of the Yellow Emperor' has already stated that how the status of human emotions have greater effects on our organs accordingly... since emotions were regarded more as feminine attributes, there are regarded as less desirable traits as we often hear people saying especially to guys like ‘boys don’t cry’, or ‘men should not show emotions’ etc. … this ongoing battle between male and female by disowning, disrespecting and dishonoring the opposite genders is by default a lost battle. It will only cause the further turmoil and imbalance in one’s own energy field because in the end as a soul entity, we all have been incarnated as both male and females in one life or another. A soul is androgynous by its nature, both male and female regardless which one you have chosen as a dominate characteristic to experience this lifetime of yours, so whatever you has disowned, dishonored to another will be done to yourself in one way or another, in this lifetime or next…I hope that for the sake of our children, there will be soon enough focus and awareness on our children’s emotional health(EQ), at least as much as their IQ intelligence in the school and in the society, and also raising the awareness of our way of parenting our children: What do we want for our children? An intelligent one? A happy one? A both? If can’t both, which one should we prioritize?... Those questions should be answered by each of us, should we keep doing what we have always been doing without questioning? Or is it time for change, not only for our children but also for ourselves?!

              Yes, life is like a series of movies. There is a delicate balance which each of us struggles to reach. Too much of getting involved, you may have the risk of losing yourself in the role you are playing; if not getting involved at all, why are you even here for?! How will you ever know the height of ecstasy if you don’t know the depth of sorrow? How will you understand the sweetness of love if you have not understood the brokenhearted? How will you ever desire the freedom of your spirit if you have not become undesired for the bondage of your bodily form… I guess, you would not have chosen to incarnate into this physical plane if you just want to be a non-physical watcher only. So please have some gratitude towards this life you have been given regardless how it seems imperfect in your eyes! Simply because you CAN, and you still CAN breathe, can feel the cool air flowing into your lungs and energize your whole body and feel the aliveness within you; because you still CAN smell the freshness of the grass and still CAN touch and embrace your loves ones and friends with your arms and your loving eyes… and you still CAN use your physical senses to experience the richness of life offered to you in all its splendor and richness…So be grateful, even towards those you have perceived as negative ones! For those, which have enriched your life and probably have grown you most…

            There is no need to be fearful for the negative emotions or experiences. Our physical body can’t help feeling what has been felt. But don’t judge yourself too harshly for what you have felt or what you have done or not done… it is what it is- just an experience. You have this or that feeling, but you are not your feeling; you have done this or that, but you are not your story; YOU in your essence are beyond all of this or that! So at any given time you can choose to re- connect with your soul, your higher self, or your spirit guides or angels(whatever you believe) to shift from your normal worldly view to a higher point of view, in order to see the bigger picture and to be able to appreciate who you are and where you are at once again... In that way, you will never astray too far from your destined path and you will gradually gain your self confidence and more importance you will gain a renewed sense of hope and faith for your life! Because in truth, by you alone, you can change your entire story as you so choose. There is no real victim here, each human is creator for his/her life story- a happy ending as you desire( hard work is needed of course, no pain no gain) or a sorrowful and  regretful ending as you choose to keep your mind stuck in your own created illusions of victimhood or scarcity… 

             You probably have heard about that the earth is a school, indeed it is. Just as the schools on earth, there are kindergartens, elementary schools, high schools and universities for different levels… each soul is meant to go through different levels of 'schooling' to learn the lessons to further its soul journey. If one particular lesson is not learned, you have to redo it and master it until your soul/higher self is satisfied in order to move to a new level. There is no judgement or punishment from God/Goddess or our divine Father/mother(whatever you prefer), the only judgment is your higher self, your own soul/spirit will judge onto yourself… Each soul entity has its own uniqueness, its own strength and weakness and at different level of its soul journey, there is no need to judge or to compare  with other souls- ‘In the end every road leads to Rome and every path leads us back Home’! Please understand this soul journey is not easy for anyone, each has different sets of challenges and blessings, even for those old advanced souls who we today may name them as star seeds or lightworkers. Their initial missions were to bring new energies of love, joy , courage and peace to this much needed earth, to assist earthlings’ consciousness evolution, to bring them back to the God’s unity consciousness, and to raise the unity awareness for the mother earth and all the beings living in it… Yet when those brave yet sensitive souls underestimated the heavy pull of the dense energies on earth, things can get of hand as well. When their sensitivity being mocked and ridiculed, their kindness and empathic nature being taken advantage of, their uniqueness being ostracized and their initial passion for humanity can be at risk of turning into depression, anger and resentments, totally disconnected from who they really are, and what they are here for, and some even get corrupted by their own ego … So brave souls, watch out! Please armor and anchor yourself with the warrior light firmly first before you set out to help the anyone else,  otherwise you will be pulled down and drowned yourself before you could help anyone …

             In the spiritual community, there are often a lot of talks about those ideas about unity consciousness and the Oneness- all the dark and light energy is the same One energy, all the good and bad is just the two sides of the same coin. It is absolutely right, after your consciousness has evolved into such a level- it is supposed to be a natural process of evolution into this so called unity consciousness, it can’t be forced or manipulated in any way. For example, it is like innocence. It is easy for a baby to be innocent, but it is not easy for an adult to be innocent especially after being bruised by people and life- the first innocence is natural, the second innocence is an accomplishment! Same with the unity consciousness, we can’t acquire or even understand what the unity consciousness is all about until we have gone through the different stages of separated consciousness. We have to be brutally honest with ourselves by acknowledging our shadows and darkness in order to heal and transmute those distorted energies within us. Before we are at the point of unity consciousness, we must acknowledge first we are NOT there. Please don’t run away, dear warrior souls, face your own demons head on! You will be surprised one day, those ‘ demons’ you have identified in you was merely some distorted energies within you which just need your attention, care and unconditional love... Once they being healed and transmuted, those ‘demons’ can even turn into your greatest alliances!!

            Yes, life is like a series of movies. When we are watching a good movie, with all the dramas going on the screen, at that moment everything seemed so close and so real to us, we got totally immersed in its story we laughing or tearing like fools… yet if we step out a little, we might notice that all the dramas are no more than some projections from the light beams onto the screen, nothing is real(Could it be possible the real us, our higher selfs are light beings out there projecting all its creation and dramas into some kind of holograms we humans called it reality...? Just an interesting thought.)    … So please remember to step out or step aside, from time to time, to recheck and realign with our soul and our highest purpose: What kind of story are we telling about ourselves and the others? And what kind of story do we want to create for ourselves and the others?... Eventually this shall be answered by us each in facing our Maker, soon or later.

 

 

(Note: Routinely I meditate a few minutes before starting to write, I wrote down whatever my thoughts were taking me at the moment, which I would like to credit to my beloved spirit guides and their nudges and inspirations... Dear readers, right now I can only dedicate one or max. 2 hours per month to write my blog for you until maybe that I become a full-time writer one day, until then please understand that I have a normal life to live and I may not have the time to edit my writing to its perfection… but hopefully my message is forwarded to you successfully nevertheless. My blog is totally non-profit, I try to share my thoughts and my experiences with you, because I have to do so, because it is written in my soul...Love)