Manipulation of Energy

           It is pretty human that we get ourselves stuck in our old patterns-the way we think, perceive, feel and react to people and situations. We may have aware that some of them are no longer serving us anymore, yet we may still choose to be stuck there, comfortably. Yes, there is always choice.

         Everything is energy. We all know that energy can neither be destroyed, energy can only be transferred or changed from one form to another. This law of thermodynamic has been widely applied in our modern way of life especially in the areas like science and technologies, yet too few take advantage in applying in those areas for the sake of benefiting our spiritual development and our wellbeing… Just think, if those negative energy patterns we have created in our life can’t be eliminated, why not working with transmuting and transforming them into some more positive energies instead?! There is no need to destroy our ‘bad energy’, transformation will do. After all, it is of the same energy of us anyway.

            I remember when I was in my teens, my hormones were running up and down. Quite often I was being taught by my father that how bad and how ugly it was to get angry, especially for a girl (he did not think about his own anger issue, I guess)… and this ‘teaching’ has had quite some influence on me even long into my adulthood whenever it came to how to deal with conflicts or anger issues. Quite often I had some kind of automatic withdrawal response as soon as I sensed some sticky situation. I did not know how to express my anger even when I got very very upset, instead I chose to shy away from conflict or to hide in my ‘cocoon’ breaking into tears, those were my usual method of releasing my suppressed emotional energy. But as soon as my emotion energy was released, I put back my happy face pretending nothing happened but secretly holding the resentment towards the person, which is called passive aggressive behavior in psychological term. The thing is if energy can’t be expressed naturally and channeled properly, it is suppressed and it will build up and eventually erupt in some unexpected even destructive ways like deadly disease or mental breakdown... Unfortunately human society has certain set of definitions between male and female roles,  maybe too much of focus are put to define our differences other than our commonalities. In fact, we each human embodies naturally both male and female characters, both Yin and Yang energy in terms of energy. But somehow human society, or more of human’s ego, has always been preferring the concept of a male embodying yang energy and a female yin energy, as if his male ego will get hurt if he shows the embodiment of yin energy and vice versa. This kind of misunderstanding plus ego has caused so many unnecessary sufferings in our human experiences, both physically, emotionally and mentally…because too much of yang energy tends to lead to aggression, too much of yin energy tends to lead to victimization.  Thus, we should work with balancing the polarity energies instead of working against them; thus we shoule honor the cycle of our emotions, including anger! Different emotion carries different elemental energy, say we Chinese. Anger usually carries lots of fire elemental energy. When it is expressed fairly and channeled properly, it has great power for transformation, and for creativity as well!  I am not suggesting you to get angry with people without reason, I am simply saying that when you have good reason to be angry, then don’t hold back, express the fire within you, let your voice be heard!

          I am sure there are many different ways which can help you to shift your energies for example meditation, reiki and breathing technique, music, shamanistic drum etc. You need to find what it works best for you. Whatever it is, the essential point is that it can help you to shift between energies- by changing the status of your emotion, or mental focus to enable you to shift from your old negative pattern into a new more positive pattern. Like any creation, new pattern has to be worked out until it becomes stabilized pattern for you. In the meantime your energy may still shift back and forth between your old energy pattern and your new energy pattern... But do hold on, you will get out of your old cycle, feeling much freer and lighter. The trick is to try to look for the silver lining in any given situations, always! You may call it self-delusion or self manipulation, but if it is for your highest good, why not?! Life is already pretty illusional, isn’t it? Most of us have spent most part of our lives in manipulating our energies for the wrong reasons, why not for the right reason this time?! For example, you have experienced some pain, some loss, some betrays and some disappointments in the past. Would you like to let this past define who you are and who you will be? Would you like to be stuck in that kinds of anger, sadness and resentment? Would you like to break free from the old cycle  and start fresh? If you so choose to see your situation as a way of learning your intended lesson; if you so choose to see your sufferings as a way of releasing your karmic debts; if you so choose those experiences as a way of awakening a deep yarning for healing; if you so choose those setbacks as necessary to rid of your heavy energy so you will be freer and lighter; if you so choose to see the hidden blessings regardless of your circumstances…Wouldn’t you already feel the rising of gratitude in your heart; the uplifted hope in your spirit; and the much longed peace filling up you and your space?!  ......

I like Rumi's saying: 

"Yesterday I was clever, 

I wanted to change the world

Today I am wiser

So I am changing myself..."

When I was judging the others

I was being judged by the others;

When I accept the others as they are

I am accepting myself as I am;

When I change my energy pattern

I am changing the manifestations of my reality;

When I changed my mind

I changed my mind about the world…

Speak Highest Within

       

           

             Since I have experienced unusual encounters and moments a few times in my life which have contributed much to my continuous curiosity and the mystic feeling about life, because they have given me the indications that things which have been always perceived in certain ways don't necessarily have to be that way …

           That was an ordinary day, I remember. I sat myself lazily on my terrace doing nothing and thinking of nothing, just watching the clouds against the backdrop of a blue sky moving little and changing forms little; I, feeling the pleasant spring breeze in the air; hearing the birds chipping from time to time, there was a sense of peace and tranquility bubbling inside me … Until suddenly a small bird ‘blue tit’(Cyanistes caeruleus) 'disturbed' my peace and landed on the table beside me... It looked incredible cute, with soft yellow color on its abdomen; mixed yellow and blue color on its back; white-faced but with a dash of blue on the top of its head…simply a beautiful bird! I did not know what I was thinking but I reached out to the bird with my palm open: ‘Come, little one, come to me…’’ To my surprise, it did fly to me and landed on my palm! I could not believe my eye that a free bird was standing in my palm! After initial a few second’s surprise and hesitation, I became bolder with my next not-thinking-through move :  I whispered gently to the bird as if I was speaking to my pet: ‘Don’t be afraid, I won’t hurt you…’ Next was the weird thing happening:  The bird seemed settling in my palm instead of flying off; and I ended up in touching its back, rubbering its soft feather with my fingers as if I was  cuddling my own pet… Maybe the whole touching thing only lasted for about 15 seconds before it took off and disappeared in the air, but still it was amazing… My daughter caught sight of the scene, in complete disbelief what she just saw... I was surprised but the same time not that surprised. Within that 15 seconds, I knew there was something special happened- Some boundary was crossed... Somewhere, somehow the spirit of mine in a human form was tuned in with the spirit of a bird in its animal form... In those seconds, great trust was shared and love was understood…

           It is ironic that which has taken some seconds to establish a trust bond with a bird would have taken years with a human being, or worse- the more grownup we humans become the more distrust we are towards each other! Once we all had that kind of openness, non-judgement and trust when we were babies before we have learnt us how to be proper humans according to our social norms and standards; Once we all were much connected with our origin and the universe at large that we all are of spirits, may in different forms but all interconnected, understand the common language of the universe- LOVE! …  When a spirit can't express itself due to the too much overtaken by the physical forces and restrictions; Or when a innerchild voice is constantly being victimnized by the ego mind, a person will gradually lose her or his power in connecting with All That Is, which will result the perception of separation from the universe and result in more fear because our human physical body is always fearful while our spirit is always fearless… So when our mind is based on the perceptions of separation and ego, no matter how eloquent we have become; no matter how much knowledge we have acquired; the words coming out of our mouth are as empty as cheap car salesmen…thus any forms of communication originates from that place of ego will only serve the expansion and manipulation of EGO, nothing more!  Today we humans are living in an era with the biggest ego, but also with the biggest fear due to our perceptions of separation from the others,  even from ourselves!

            So if your words are not coming from a place of heart; from a place of spirit/soul; from a place of authenticity… then please behold your words! I, rather to be left alone with a tree or a cat because I don’t want to feel that terrible sense of loneliness even with your presence, with all that of nonsense coming out of your mouth…I understand where you come from because I have been in your shoes before, but you will not understand me... I am no longer interested in wasting my time, life is too previous.  For those who understand me, there is no need for me to explain myself; and for those who don’t, why bother?! Real flow of communication can’t neither be forced nor manipulated, it just happens naturally and beautifully... It is pure energy exchange of love flowing from one soul to another, from one spirit to another… So when you are ready to speak from the highest place within you to the highest place within me, trust will be shared and love will be felt naturally and spontaneously, with or without a spoken word; So, if you practice to  ‘speak’ the highest within always, no matter it is to a tree, a dog or a human, you will find the whole existence starting opening to you, and ‘speaking’ to you and through you, with the universal language of LOVE …

The Queen of Swords

People seem impossible to attain contentment:
Problem with too little of money

Problem with too much of money;

Problem with too little of silence

Problem with too much of silence;

Poblem with too little of love

Problem with too much of love...

So people changing from one job to another;

So people moving from one city to another;

So people jumping from one relationship to another;

So people keeping looking outwards to solve their problems
-but keeping running away from their own problems...
So different scenarios being created to deceive themselves;

So different masks being worn to avoid facing their 'true face';

So different dramas being played over and over again;

Yet beneath everything remains the same-
 the same restlessness in heart

 the same lacking in mentality

the same desperate illusion of chasing those glorious dreams in a far far land...

She, the queen of swords-

has seen through all the veils and illusions in this 3D reality;

has been though countless heartaches and tribulations;

has finally conquered all of her own inner demons and shadows…

She, finally hold up her divine sword drawing a circle around her;

She, cutting off anything which no longer serves her highest good;

She, watching the world outside her circle going about its way;

She, allowing all the dramas outside her circle playing out;

without participating

without attachment

She, the queen of swords lives in -

her circle, her castle and her sanctuary

There she is both a queen and a servant

There she is both a master and a student

There she is both the view and the viewer…

She doesn’t need the outer world to ‘create’ her nor to 'crown' her

Yet she does the beautiful creations and inspirations to the world-
by simply staying within the circle of her own beautiful and powerful being

……

Potentiality

If  I were an eagle

Why wouldn’t I use my wings to soar the sky

How would I know its vastness otherwise?

If I were a whale

Why wouldn’t I want to play in a real ocean

How would I know its depth otherwise?

If I were a majestic lion

Why wouldn’t I roar the jungle to its feet

How would I know that I could be its king otherwise?

If I were made a human

Why wouldn’t I want to live a life its fullest potential-

to stretch my mind to the limit or even beyond;

to test territories where few dare to enter ;
to see what is beyond physical eyes could see;

to try what is beyond the social norms could allow...

Why wouldn't I?!  How would I know otherwise

- the power of  human mind?

-the fearlessness of spirit?

- the lessons and the blessings of being a human?

- and the universal unity between the physical and the spiritual realm

between the form and the formless ?...

Knowing where my fingers stop

My energy can travel further;

Knowing where my mind stops

My spirit can move further;

Knowing where my heart stops

My soul can journey further

Knowing whomever I think I am 

I CAN still be more…

Return

Life does have a good sense of humor 

First I had to spend years and years –

to learn how to be an appropriate adult

Then I had to spend years and years -

to relearn how to be like a child again…

There is nothing-

 really needed to add to our being to be happy;

But there is much-

needed to be released to find back our inner peace;

Sometime less is indeed more.

Here I am,

feeling the freshness of crispy air coming in and out of my lungs;

fascinating over the sun rays reflecting on the ice flakes making them like magical crystals;

checking out the small creatures  hidden under the stone in the creek;

giggling like a child being caught by some snow falling from a tree branch into my neck…

I know, maybe, to many others-

I have been growing more and more foolish;

Yet I know, for sure, to my own soul-

it has been growing the rejoices for my return

to ALL that is of pure spirit

to ALL that is wonderous and mysterious ……

Happy New Year 2019!

Divine Purpose

           A few days ago, I overheard the conversations among a few young guys in their late 20s and earlier 30s, typically Scandinavian blue eyes and brown hair handsomes. They were talking about girls and comparing how many girlfriends they have had so far, they were teasing each other and exchanging the mischievous laughters as if they were winning some kind of trophies…

        I turned my attention away feeling a sense of sadness: What has happenen to us? What has happened to our values? ...  Do you really think that you are gaining or winning something? Do you realize what you are doing to yourself?... Sexual energy is a very powerful energy-for its powerful ability to create and to destroy. In Chinese ancient Taoism there was a sacred knowledge about sexual alchemy to obtain higher status of consciousness through the physical union and alignment of two energies with love, but only physical union won’t do. With that being said, the energy exchange through physical contact will have a greater and a longer impact on both parties physically, mentally and spiritually, which many may have underestimated. Once the contact is taken place, the energy cording between two will be established, even though you might never see each other again afterwards, the energy cording will continue to exist-you taking on each other’s energies(good or bad), even each other's karmic energies… unless you are consciously enough to work with cutting off and releasing that energetic bond between you two (because you have the free will )... Anyway, it means the more ‘trophies’ you have collected, most likely, the more energy burdens you may have taken on yourself, even the other's past karmic energy burdens; which also means the more work will be needed from you to work off those energies ... So really, in what sense do you think you have gained or won,  your ego maybe?!

            It is within each soul’s deep longing to learn its lesson through different sojourns, to evolve, to be able to return to the soul’s original ‘purity’; to transmute heavier energy to lighter energy; to transcend from the lower vibrations to higher vibrations; to be able to ‘go home’ in the end (we can’t return not because there is a wrathful God punishing us and stopping us, it is just because our own energy can’t sustain in those higher vibrations and frequencies yet)... 3D earthly sojourn is no more than another universe school. During our lifetime in this earthly ‘ school’, each relationship we have, each soul we encounter will be served as the mirror to ourselves; to learn the lessons which were intended; to prepare us for the union with ourselves and finally one with God(the creative universal forces)... By avoiding the work in the relationships once they become rocky; by running away from our own issues and shadows, we will be just delaying our own soul development. Lessons have to be learnt, in one way or another, in one life or another. Though there is no authoritive God or Gods demanding us to do so, it is within our own soul’s innate deep desire- to release all the karmic burdens, to heal ourselves, to return to that divine light, to experience that kind of unconditional love and to be able to feel that kind of oneness with ALL that is again...

           If we choose to run away from our problems; if we keep looking for the answers from the outside sources(e.g. money, drugs, alcohol, sex etc.), we probably have to reincarnate many more lives to have that intended lesson learnt- It is so called ‘wheel of karma’ in Buddhism. I call it as‘the wheel of hamster’- Be like a hamster keeping running yet get to no where!… After all the failed relationships, after all the heartaches and headaches, we may come to an important life realization one day- There is no one in this world can truly fulfill you other than yourself! And there is no relationship in this world can truly fill that empty void inside you(maybe temporarily), other than the relationship with yourself!

          Once we give up looking outside ourselves for answers, we may ready to have a true relationship with ourselves. I am not saying it is an easy process- It is said easier to victory over the others than over one’s self! In order to purge, to heal, one has to tear off one’s own masks and falsehood; One has to face one’s own shadows and the dark night of the soul; One has to be willing to open the deep old wounds and scars and to look at them objectively; One has to own one’s own karma, both good or bad which have been done to the others and one’s self… Therefore until we can have a pretty good authentic relationship with ourselves,  most of our relationships will remain on the egoistic façade exploiting each other in the name of love…

           Once we can see the truth beneath the veil of the dramas of our relationships; Once we can perceive the divine purpose beyond our frustrations and disappointments – As it is said, prior to our reincarnation, it was our own soul who have made different agreements and contracts with other souls or soulmates that they shall play certain roles in our life- a heavier role or a lighter role, a role of 'a good guy' or a role of ‘a bad guy’, so we can learn our intended lessons, to serve our soul growth… It may seem difficult to digest at first, but this may exactly what our higher selfs wanted, exactly what we need for our soul growth... Sometimes life is not what it seems, and love is not what it seems. If we could try to ‘see from above’ sometimes, our relationships no matter how challenging they are, how heartbreaking it is, there may still be hidden higher purposes and disguised blessings for us ......

Beyond likes and dislikes

Yesterday

I was in tears-

for who I was NOT

Today

I am in tears -

for who I AM

BEYOND others’ likes and dislikes
You shall meet with your authentic self there;

BEYOND any form of control or manipulation
You shall meet with your soaring free spirit there;

BEYOND your own conditioned patterns
You shall meet with the Divine Love there
......